I am still in complete and total disbelief that we shared an afternoon together..sunday afternoon was incredible. I loved seeing Carmelo with our son. It would be awesome if he continues to see and bond with him. I love them both so much and he is good with our baby. I was filled with such love and awe when I seen the love in his eyes for his baby boy. He had tears sliding down his cheeks when he was holding Cayden close. I want so badly for him to continue to be there. The fact that we made out after Cayden was asleep and in his car seat..I told him I had to go and he didn't want us to leave. It was completely unexpected. Once I put baby in his seat I figured that he would walk away but instead he got back in the car and we proceeded to hold each other, I went to kiss him on his cheek and he kissed me on the mouth, bit my lip like he used to. Kept kissing me and we held each other...he even let me pop his pimples and pluck his eye brows which were in terrible need of plucking. Anyway even though I want us to be together again so bad I will continue to give him his space..especially since he's still living with that chick! Ugh...ideally he'll come back to me and we can be a whole family finally...but if he at least continues to visit with and bond with Cayden then that's enough! I'm very happy for once.
