June 4, 2011

It has been a little while since I've written here...Cayden is up to over 8lbs...he's almost two months and growing so much! I can't get over how much being a Mama changes you, well me anyway, emotionally, physically, and in every other way I can think of.

I'm sad to say that since forcing Carmelo to see him that one time almost a month ago he hasn't had shit to do with Cayden. The piece of shit couldn't or wouldn't even give me 2o bucks for diapers...thank  God for my family and their financial and emotional support. I wouldn't be able to do it without them! Since he moved to another town with another girl he has shown that Cayden doesn't matter to him at all and of course I don't. It doesn't matter about me but I can't believe he would choose to miss out on God's greatest gift to us. He turned out to be such a loser! Sadly I still keep hoping he'll come around. It probably won't happen but I can't hope but wish and hope!

Well here are some pics of me and my perfect baby boy! God I love him beyond description!