Welcome to a little look into my life....

Welcome to a little look into my life....

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Need to vent.......

Okay so what a very frustrating evening I'm having so far. I hate when things are going soooooo well only to slam hard into a brick wall! I'm soooooooo beyond trying to work things out and make sure things are going smoothly and so much for trusting blindly...I was so blown away by Carmelo's ignorant ass text ......we had a great time today before he headed to work and the only thing I said that coulda pissed him off (even though I don't know why it would) is that my car died and this person who lives with us was supposed to come pick me up....I mean he was on his way to work so it wasn't like I could ask him to turn around and come back to get me coz he woulda been late. I let him know that I made it home safe and that my car started....when he got to work he replied "ye whatever"....so I texted him back and asked him why he said that....he eventually responded with "cuz I hate u" OMG where the fuck did that come from? I mean things have been GREAT between us, he was just searching my phone, asking me questions (not bad) and admitting he was a bit jealous....we made out ALOT...just hung and enjoyed each other's company (or so I thought) as we do everyday...he kept kissing me and loving on me, ect....

I just don't get where that came from and normally I would lash out and blow the fuck up on him but I just asked him why he felt the need to send me that text...if he feels that way for real he needs to tell me....blah blah blah...I'm done stressing about it now....

My freaking fuel filter is sitting on the table and needs to be put in my car...I wish I was mechanically inclined because I sure as hell wouldn't need anyone's help to do something as simple as a fuel filter but I'm clueless! Grr!

OKAY UPDATE:
Well he called me on his break and said that he was just joking...he figured I would know that...BUT I said that he should tell me he loves me instead of saying he hates me...he apologized so I forgave and am letting it go...he doesn't realize though on the outside I've got it "together" I am still hormonal at certain times but I don't want to burden him with it so I don't bring it up anymore....Anyway I feel much better and I'm glad that I didn't over-re-act and blow up on him...I love that man so much and it kills me that he has soooo much power over my emotions...I guess that's the price I pay for loving and trusting him with all of my heart!

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