Well today I had contact with Carmelo....he gave me $100 towards clothing and things for our son. I told him calmly how I felt...I let him know that I still miss and love him very much and would love for us to work things out...I let him see the ultrasound pics of our baby boy and let him know that I really needed to know if he was going to be there for his son. I can't teach my baby boy to be a man...I can only do my best to be a good mother but I feel all children need a father figure in their life....he seems like he is going to be there no matter what happens between us....we ended up hugging and I kissed his cheek. I shed a couple of tears but quickly regained control and kept it positive and civil. I asked him to please make sure that he gets back with me if I text or call him because I won't be doing so in order to annoy or aggravate him...I want him to be available when I go into labor so he can come to the birth of his son if he wishes to do so...he agreed. I know he cares, his feelings were shining in his eyes...I mean he cares for Cayden but I don't think anything will ever come of our relationship beyond civil parenting for our son which is the most important thing......anyway I love and miss him so much but I will keep it under wraps because I don't want to get all hormonal again.
I got some really cute outfits for my lil man and am almost done with a baby blanket for him because I had made a really adorable one when I believed the tech that I was having a girl so I have to and want to make one now that I know I'm really having a boy! I should be finished with it by tomorrow or Sunday at the latest...just have to sew his name on it and put the monkeys on and the backing then it shall be finished...I'm excited....baby boy is kicking away as I type this...I can't wait to meet my lil man!
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