Wednesday....3-23-2011

Weeeell......I am up early as heck today. Have  been being a "grease monkey" the past two days....once we get the parts to rebuild the engine in the blazer I'll be a grease monkey again hahaha! Anyway Cayden keeps moving like crazy in me and I LOVE feeling him. I can't believe there is only six weeks left until I can finally meet my lil man. I took the tags off and washed all of my baby's clothes and blankies...got the diaper bag ready to go and stocked the diaper storage thingy on my pack n play so I'm pretty much ready to go....I put the bouncer seat together....car seat is out of the box...only thing left for me to do is put the stroller together I guess. :)

I met and started talking to this white guy...he's so not my type but honestly we have similar interests but sadly he's a pot-head...wouldn't be an issue but I'm not so good with temptation and being on probation for probably at least another 2-3 years I can't risk myself. I would never want to put my baby through the crap I went through with visiting my dad in prison...IMO this would be much worse because I'm his Mommy and since I have no real faith Carmelo is going to be any real sort of stable constant figure in our son's life I will be doing it on my own with the help of my wonderful loving family. No way is any substance going to get in the way of me being able to be a wonderful mama to my lil man!

So anyway I hope these next 6 weeks fly by because I can't sleep well at night, am tired of he physical aches and pains of my back on a daily basis. It's for sure worth it of course because OMG the miracle blessing growing inside me is worth any and everything I may ever have to endure without a doubt.......but I'm ready for the six weeks to be done with...just saying hahaha!