1-5-2001

Damn it why did Oscar have to call me? He is fucking drunk after almost 12 years! Are you serious? I told him NOT to call me anymore because I DON'T want to talk to him and especially while he's drunk. I mean OMG he NEVER drank the WHOLE seven years we were together despite us using drugs together, getting clean, ect. I hate the fact that he keeps calling my cell and my house. It is after 11pm and my BIL is gonna end up getting pissed off at me and I've asked him to quit calling and told him I won't talk to him. Ugh so frustrating seriously! I hurt for him that he actually started DRINKING again after everything he went through. It's harder to fathom for me than him relapsing on drugs...I guess because he had a hell of an easier time getting sober from drugs than from alcohol. My heart is aching for him right now but at the same time it's not my problem. Ugh!