I hate my fucking life!!

This really sucks. I can't stop crying today. I'm so hurt that he can just walk away from me with no regards and no regrets. We have been together for over 8 months and despite ups and downs I just don't understand how in the hell he can walk away. I hate my life, I hate life in general right now. I wish I could be selfish enough to say "fuck it all" but I just can't. I know I'll get through this...I just want to crawl inside a hole and die. I want to be numb!