today

I am feeling a tad better, I know that his phone locked up due to the excess number of calls yesterday (oops)....he told me he didn't hate me and I told him I wouldn't contact him until next month when I would need his help with getting the stroller/car seat combo, then once again after Cami Jo is born I'm gonna need his help with formula and diapers. I told him I would back off and do what's best for our daughter and i don't want him to hate or despise her because of me pushing him, ect. He looked sad and said he didn't hate me...he said he'd talk to me later. I feel better but now I'm gonna do everything in my power NOT to text him or call him or seek him out in anyway. It won't be easy but I have to be true to my word for baby's sake and my own piece of mind and dignity. I got through today and his break time without breaking down...I will get through each minute as it comes.