Depressed.......

It probably wasn't the best idea to sleep with him yesterday. I feel extremely miserable today. I woke up with severe back pain and feeling more depressed than usual. I need to go sign in real quick but I loathe the idea of having to drive into town! UGH! I feel like shit emotionally and physically and this shit just sucks! I need to put my heart away again but damn it I really love that dude...the fact that we are having a baby is the clincher for me and what makes it nearly impossible for me to walk away!