Saturday

I'm miserable......so miserable and lonely feeling today. I miss Carmelo as always and I just want to run to him and have him hold me....not realistic I know because obviously he hasn't said that he desires the same. I mean we agreed that we may meet up tomorrow but we are just friends. I am sick of being alone already but I mean fuck it, I'm not trying to go out and meet someone else, especially at this point in my life. I am bored beyond belief...I don't know it's just not a fun night tonight and I'm just really really lonely right now! :(