Welcome to a little look into my life....

Welcome to a little look into my life....

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

I am sooooooooooooo beyond upset with Carmelo right now. I'm sick of him not texting me on his breaks (well today anyway) I'm sick of his indifferent attitude lately (the past week)...I'm sick to death of feeling so lonely and I know a lot of it is my own hormones and not having my medicine for the past two days but seriously dude do you not have 2 effing seconds to answer my text tonight? UGH!! I fucking hate feeling this way! I am beyond ready to do something stupid seriously I won't though because my baby's health and my freedom mean too much to me but I want to beat the shit out of him! I want to cuss his stupid ass out and slit his tires! I want to take all my anger out on him because he doesn't think it's priority to re-assure me! Granted I should be feeling grateful that he spends his time working/sleeping/and seeing me when possible but seriously...how am I to know he hasn't met some bitch at his job? He says nop but how can I believe that? I am so sick of this shit and sick of being mentally sick as well. I can't deal with this crap!  I want to scream at the top of my lungs, rip off someone's face,  just fucking do "SOMETHING" to feel better! Anyway I am done stressing/ranting for the night I guess.

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