Tuesday

Well today has been a decent one. I went to my weekly therapy appointment and actually made the report that needed to be made. I feel better. I haven't text or talk to Carmelo since yesterday and I know he's busy with work so I feel it's best to leave him alone and let him contact me when he's ready and has time. I must say that I am very disappointed with the prenatal listener...I only heard a HB once and haven't been able to hear it since. I'm not freaking out because she moves so much and the reviews of the product were all pretty much the same...no one able to hear the HB. I got a stethoscope today but haven't been able to locate the heartbeat with that either....though to be honest I haven't tried very hard. 

I am feeling anxious for no good reason....I am going to be 26 weeks tomorrow which means I'll only have 14 weeks left of my pregnancy until my precious precious baby arrives! I can NOT imagine the love and happiness I am going to feel when I can finally hold her in my arms....I love her so much already and the joy I feel when she kicks me and moves is intense. I can't wait!

I want Carmelo and I to get back together because in all honesty I miss him quite a bit. I want to be with him because he is a very stable, healthy, responsible man. I know that I can't "MAKE" anything happen so I'm leaving it in God's hands. :)