Okay honestly I've done some soul searching.......I used to always complain about a dear friend's wife being more of a "woman" (selfish, only focused on men, ect) and I don't want to turn into that. I must admit that I am sad but I am going to lock my heart away because truly my heart belongs to one person and that is my darling daughter! She deserves love, a mommy who is stress free (as much as possible) and me to devote myself 100% to doing what is the best for her. I don't doubt he'll be a good father and in all sincerity I must except whatever is meant to happen will. I know that God truly blessed me when he sent Carmelo into my life and we conceived this miracle growing inside of me. She was sent to me for a reason and I will do the best I can in making her a happy life full of love and goodness. I don't need to worry about having relationships, I spent enough time focusing on me so now it's time to move on and focus on baby!
I am hurt in a way but in all sincerity and honesty I have no choice but to allow myself to accept the facts as they are. If Carmelo comes around on his own with no guilt or pressure from me then by all means I'm open to our relationship but at the same time I have to protect myself and my emotional well being in turn protecting the health of my precious baby girl. I love her already more than I've ever loved anyone or anything my entire life!
Right here, all that you wrote, proves that you will be a great mother. You are so very strong and I know you can keep going! I will send you loving vibes from now on...good luck honey!
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